Middle school. Great. (- ___-)

I'm sorry it's been so long since I said hi, and updated you on things. But I'm going on a really ruff phase right now, and I need ALLOT Of support.

I'm going to tell you a story to start.

So there was this one time when I went to jump street, and they had a foam pit (jump street is a trampoline place that is really fun). When I say foam pit, I mean foam blocks, like, foam everything. I went in and I could get out, I was completely trapped. Eventually my friend came over and helped me out but the feeling was horrible. It felt like I was being held back from moving forward, and having fun. That is exactly how I am feeling right now.

Three days ago was my first day of middle school, and I was freaking out, and crying. So far I love it, but every day afterwards I feel as if it's happening all over again, and I get anxiety,depression, and I always cry. :*( I feel as if it will never end. Bojo is scared.

R.I.P. Mickey the guinea pig...

WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY!


WHY ME!! Mickey has died... Now my heart has broken.

In case you don't know who Mickey is,or was, he was mu guinea pig. *sob*

He died yesterday, while cuddling on my chest. I knew he was sick, and we where giving him all kinds of meds and concoctions to help him feel better, but it didn't work *sob* *sob*

At first he started dragging his feet, but then when he was cuddling with me...

He started opening a closing his mouth.

Then he he arched his back, struggled, and went limp. Right on my chest.

I miss him so much... I don't know how to NOT think about him. My dad just took his body to go get cremated.

:,(

I have no clue on how to title this...

Well. Ya.

I AM DOING HORRIBLY, THANKS FOR ASKING!!!! Well, I mean, you didn't ask but it was the only way I could get my point across.


My parent's are fighting, and when they are fighting, I just wanna die! When they are fighting, I get so scared and freaked out that I feel sick to my stomach! I literally feel like I am going to, how do I put this, PUKE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!  I have no clue why them fighting= me dieing... Oh wow that rhymes.

People in relationships fight every now and then, and I know that, but for some reason I feel like they shouldn't be. I think the reason I feel super sick every time my parents fight is because each time I feel OVERLY worried that they are going to get a divorce.

HOW DO KIDS WITH PARENTS WHO ARE DIVORCED LIVE????

Now I feel really bad that I am freaking out because my parents are fighting, and there are kids out there who's parents are divorced. I'm such a wimp.


Later on in the evening...


Well, my parents have stopped fighting, whitch makes me feel a WHOLE lot better.

:)

Slitley scared!

It is raining right now.

Well actually, from the warning I got on my cellular phone (geeky right?!) IT'S A FLASH FLOOD!

Omigosh I am totally freaking out! My dad has to drive a LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG way to work, at night, and I mean, what if his car is hit by a lightning bolt or something!?!?!?!?!?!

:( I AM FREAKING OUT!


Plus the rain sounds very scary, like a ton of people are trying to break into our house!


I went to a museum where they had a model of a flash flood. It was LIFE SIZED! And freakyyyyyy... And the model was a nice sunshiney FLASH FLOOD not like this one which is a mad, freaky, killer flash flood! 


This is just not my night.


I guess it is kinda nice though when your going to sleep.


BUT NOT WHEN YOUR DRIVING!


*Why flash flood? WHY?

Crumbling :*((

Hey guys. I know I haven't been here for awhile.

I really hate summer.

I don't wake up at a normal time in the morning, because I am not using my alarm clock, because I don't have to worry about getting to school on time. My breakfast is now lunch!! And since I wake up at lunch time, my normal bedtime is wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy to early.

I. AM. SOOOOOO. TIRED!!!! -___- I'VE BEEN GOING TO SLEEP AT 2:30 AT NIGHT!!

Don't say it, I know. I've been saying the whole school year that  I can't wait for summer... What I really mean is that I would rather have a week of no school, a week of school, a week of no school, and so on.

On a more positive note, My Babysitters A Vampire is back on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOO HOOOO! I was Sarah for character day at my school, I love that show so much!! :D Benny is cuter then EVER!

He is seriously cute!!

So far the have shown Welcome Back Dusker and Say You'll Be Maztak. Say You'll Be Maztak was just plain awkward. Almost all of the boys at White Chappel were put under a spell my this 'Sun Queen', and went, how do I put this... SHIRTLESS! Very awkward. :P lol. 

Awkward, right?

*LIFE MUST GO ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

I pretty much dislike summer...

Okay, I know it sounds weird but...

I DON'T EXACTLY LIKE SUMMER!!! :P


I know it sounds really  weird, (possibly in my case) but I have no schedual, and really nothing to do during the summer. Plus, I sleep wayyyyyyyyyy too late...


And I miss school, because I love being able to stretch my mind. I also miss my friends a TON.


Oh, but it isn't like I'm gonna be seeing them next year because I am going to Merato, and they are all going to Weatern Sky... 

Maybe this will make me feel better:

OMG I seriously <3 One Direction.


Speaking of One Direction...


I AM GETTING AN IPOD ALARM CLOCK! I JUST PLUG MY IPOD INTO IT, AND WHEN I WAKE UP IT PLAYS A SONG ON MY IPOD! WOOOOOOO HOOOOO! 


The only reason I am getting it is because my current one doesn't let me change the hour. I really want a clock radio too.


Gosh, I love blogging.

*Not crazy about summer 

Summer slugishness...

Sorry I'm not blogging as much as I should be... I am just not very "awake" with summer.

I will get more on it though! I promise! Anyway the way that Savannah was using me:

• When she is crying I comfort her. When I am crying she avoids me!
• She never wants to do anything I would like to do, but I do whatever she wants to do.
• She gets a few injuries. I get WAY more injuries, yet she ignores me when I get hurt, but I worry when she is hurt.

There are allot more but right now I cannot harp on the past.

Time for some positive thinking!

 SO, on the week of father day, my mom and I ( my dad will be at a golf tournament in Mexico) will go over to my grandma and grandpas apartment (they live in a retirement community) and stay over for two days. We are gonna get to stay in the guest suite next to grandma and grandpas place, so it should be nice. The community has a pool! So who has two thumbs and is gonna go swimming soon?! This girl!

Lol my breakfast is so nummy. Crackers with pb and blueberry yogurt. This is the life...

Not me, btw.

:D :D  :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D